It is nearly 2 a.m. I am up and eating a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. I'm not sure if I'm actually hungry, or just trying to fill the pit in my stomach. Why am I awake?
a) There is a large, loud, lonely owl hooting outside our bedroom window.
b) There is a sniffling, hypocondriacal six-year-old with a cold in our bed.
c) I am anxious about today's level 2 ultrasound.
d) I am anxious about tonight's city planning commission meeting.
Naturally, it's all of the above.
The day ahead is, for me, one of those days we all have to just get through. It's been a scheduling nightmare, where little events and big events all collide in the same calendar square, and it seems none can be rescheduled. It makes my head hurt just to think about all the juggling I've had to do-- and all the help we need from my sister and parents-- just to make this stuff happen.
The higher-level ultrasound was scheduled mainly to
ease my anxiety about the baby's health, due to my "advanced maternal age" (Ha! I'll show
you advanced maternal age!) and everything we've gone through with Benjamin. Of course, once I actually called the specialists' office to make the appointment, and the nurse walked me through the procedure and explained the required pre- and post- genetic counseling, that's when the real fears kicked in.
Then, there's the ongoing deck/screened porch saga. Those who live close enough to get an earful have heard enough about this already. Suffice it to say I see local politics as a sometimes necessary evil, capable of the occasional act of public good. In this case, we want to make a simple improvement to our property, and are having to spend months of our lives and way too much money to fight to do it. With plans in place since we moved into the house two years ago, tonight will be the first public forum where we can present our side.
Other events, which would make it a normally busy day, include: physical therapy for Benjamin, along with a meeting to review his new Individualized Education Plan (IEP;) getting Elisabeth to and from preschool, so she can sing her heart out in Christmas program rehearsal; and attending a special church celebration. For those of you Catholics, here is your reminder that it is the Feast of the Immaculate Conception. I do think it's pretty cool that the baby's tests just happened to be scheduled on the same day that our church celebrates Mary as the mother of all mothers.
My Aunt Dorothy commented to me sometime back about something she'd read: that blogging is like journaling, and the writers may actually use it as therapy. I say, "Amen, Sister."
Finally, I would like to use this space to outline my argument for why Benjamin and the new baby should share the nursery, even though we have an empty bedroom down the hall. "You never have any guests," my mom points out. However, "guest room" is a euphemism for "Mommy's-room-when-there's-snoring-and-kicking-and-hooting-going-on-in-her-bed-and-hopefully-she'll-get-some-shut-eye-elsewhere."
Please pray for us today. As always, the updates will appear in Krinkeland... whether you want them or not.